the STORY
I need to make a change…
If not for me, for the kid I’m having
The turningpoint
Me and my spouse had been struggling with infertility for many years.
And it was now, when finally getting to look at the positive pregnancy tests (yes, there were several) in a mobile home in the midst of the Swedish Alps in the very north of Sweden, I realize:
I need to make a change in my life.
I need to prioritize my happiness from now on.
Not only for myself but also for the child I’m carrying.
When I grew up, my mother was ill with depression and a series of physical illnesses.
And I spent a lot of my childhood alone with my mum.
I remember thinking I’d give anything to make her well again...
Sidenote: Actually, the first song I ever wrote (as a sixteen-year-old) was about that. “The key to happiness” I named it… about how powerless I felt toward my mother's sickness.
That’s why becoming a healthy and happy mum became my top priority.
From my experience, I knew that no one else could fix that but me - so I just went for it.
Music, which is closest to my heart, became my choice.
My mother, when happy, always sang to comfort me.
And I’ve always sung to uplift and comfort myself.
I contacted a producer and recorded four songs while pregnant.
This was during the year 2020 when COVID-19 raged, making all of our lives different.
It turned into four songs about taking a leap of faith.
Songs about not knowing - but daring to believe in the good, and about moving forward despite fear.
Early on in the recording process, I decided these songs would turn into an EP named INTO SPACE.
Now, fast forward to today with my three-year-old daughter, I’ve released all four of those songs.
I've reached thousands of people with my music and have gotten in touch with fans worldwide who say my music has soothed them and given them a sense of peace, and hope.
I’m so grateful for this; it's really given my life meaning in a way that I could not have imagined.
I know now that my music and writing are helping.
It changes everything to know that.
And now I’m back in the studio again, working on a veeeeeery special track..
It’s a classical piano piece originally.
This specific piece rang in my head during the entire labor of my daughter three years ago… and has been my slight obsession ever since.
I’ve rewritten it into a vocal arrangement.
And it’s recorded solely with my vocals.
This piece of music was the last springboard from which I took off into the next phase of my life.
Motherhood.
Artistry.
And taking charge of my life’s fulfillment and happiness.
On my own terms.